It has been quite a while since the last time I have updated this dear blog-site of mine and I am starting to feel rather guilty if not worried about it. The last time I have posted a blog entry here was last February 10 entitled To Be Published or Not To Be Published: Writing for the Sake of Writing, which is quite ironic because here, I talked about how I love writing and my promise to write, but did not write since then.
Aside from the huge delay, I have also realized that the blog entry of the 10th of February was the only journal entry I have posted for the month of February. This is quite a contradiction with the frequency I have posted last month. Last month, I have had 11 posts in total.
Just quite recently, I have developed a daily exercise which I would like to refer to as ‘The Study Game’. I allocate Almost three to four hours of my day for this stimulating mental exercise. The Study Game entails that I sit behind my desk and play pretend. I pretend that I am still studying in the university and with the help of the syllabi I have collected from each course I have taken, I am retracing my steps since day one in the graduate school.
When I read and study the texts required for one particular week in that particular course, I read and study them seriously as if I am, again, Almost preparing for an examination or a class presentation. Basically, what I am doing is retaking the courses I took in grad school for the second time around on my own and on my own time. The graduate school has provided me the theoretical concepts and methodological tools that enables me to study and work independently.
You can take the student out of the classroom, but you cannot take the classroom out of the student. This is particularly true in my own personal case, because even though I have already graduated from the graduate school I have attended, I do still maintain a study habit. Even though I am no longer in the university, I am still under its Clutch. I think I can call myself as a ‘frustrated academic’.
For a couple of days now, I have been spending most of my leisure times sitting behind my desk and going through the journal articles and books, both in print and otherwise, that I have studied while I was in the university. One might say that what I am doing is rearranging all these disorganized texts by putting them into certain places in a particular order, so that I could navigate them more efficiently. While there is a ring of truth to that, that is not all what I actually do.